I had a conversation recently with a colleague, and we acknowledged how good we are both feeling, and that it feels like we have finally pulled through something. I can’t even begin to explain this, it is wonderful! It is extremely wonderful to finally feel SO good!
I feel filled with anticipation for the time ahead. I don’t know exactly what this is, but I can feel it, I have intentions, there are conversations – and if these represent what is coming, it’s going to be amazing! We’re talking road trips, travel, health, empowerment and location independence with love by my side.
But yesterday, I came home from work, and needed to rest, I felt depleted.
When I got to my room, short of falling asleep, I was drawn to meditate. I needed to clear the hectic energy I’d picked up from the store. A few minutes into it, I felt really bleeeehhh, heavy, nauseous, like I was processing something heavy. But because I know how good I’ve been feeling, I KNEW this wasn’t mine to process. I tuned in a little more, and it became apparent I’d picked up some filthy entity along the way, that jumped on for a ride. Bleeeeehhh! I demanded it leave immediately, making way for it to leave with light, an abundance of sage and intention. Filthy Fucker! Excuse me – but it was disgusting! This is not the first time I have cleared an entity from my being, but maybe one of the first that has felt so yuck.
It really reminds me the importance of energetic self care, and how we need to come to know our own energy, so that we don’t allow these entities to jump aboard for free rides.
What this shows up as, is feeling less than our bright shiny selves. It might make us feel bad, uncomfortable, emotional, unmotivated, and not even know why?
So I cleared that filthy fucker and immediately began to express audible sighs of relief as I returned to my feeling good buzz.
So this leads onto the topic of energetic self care, a present one with friends.
It took me a long time to build my energetic self awareness. I had to deal with the discomfort of supermarkets and malls, of demanding customers and students – and multiple uncomfortable conversations. I had to integrate my learnt communication skills to protect myself moment to moment. That coupled with a meditation practice, showed me my inner landscape. It took time. I liken it to running a marathon. You can’t run a marathon without first training for one. You start slowly, building up your cardiovascular fitness and endurance. You have a training programme that supports you in getting there.
The same goes for building your energetic self awareness, you have to start with the first step of training. Haha – I just had an image of Mr Miyagi in Karate Kid.
The most necessary first step I’d suggest is;
Start a Meditation Practice
Come to know your inner landscape – your innermost thoughts and how your energy sits within (and around) your physical body. If it is new to you, perhaps start with 5 minutes per day and build up your consistency.
– Let go of any agenda you may have.
– Give yourself permission to be, and for everything to be perfect as it is.
– Focus on your breath – watch your inhalation and exhalation.
Acknowledge any and all fears or blocks you may have from starting your practice. Anything preconceived ideas about how you think it should be. It will be perfect exactly how it is. We don’t pre-plan a conversation with a friend or colleague beforehand, it unfolds beautiful in the very moment it is happening. Meditation is the same. Just start and breathe.
As you come to know your inner landscape, you know more clearly if something in your energy field feels off. Usually by shear awareness of that energy within your field, you can clear it. By your focus and intention, by your breath. Even if you’re unsure, ask yourself, “is this mine?” It generally leaves if it’s not. Send it off to the light and maybe give yourself a little sage or Palo.
You can watch my video here – for further information.
Start with this practice as the first step.
If you already have a practice, I’d love you to share the benefits you receive.
If you’re looking at starting one, I’d love to hear how you’re enjoying it.
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