Heidi Firth I’ve heard this term a bit over my years, it was always one of those coaching descriptions that I understood intellectually, but didn’t yet have an experience of.
It’s a bit like your Mum/Dad/Grandparents, telling you, you just know when you’ve met that person you want to marry.
There’s a deep inner resonance with your soul.
A souls calling… It communicating with you, calling you to take action around something deeply meaningful & transformative.
I feel like mine is yelling at me right now.
There is a restlessness within me, that feels like it won’t relax until I do the very thing it is calling me to do.
I’m pretty excited about it, I feel like I’ve been dancing between worlds of action & inaction for the last number of months. I’ve learnt that there isn’t one clear straight road from point A to point B. Sometimes, manytimes, one needs to take stock, smell the flowers, spend time with the flowers, get to know the purpose of these flowers before the journey continues.
I’m proud to say that I have been pretty compassionate towards myself during this time. I am no longer the freight train that I used to be in getting tasks done. Sometimes it can frustrate me that I don’t see results when I want to see them. But then, as I’ve now learnt that I am connected to a bigger force at play, the end result is going to always be larger than I could’ve ever anticipated!
For a while now, I have had a goal, a dream, an idea that I will write a book. I’ve seen it as being some sort of memoir about healing from sexual abuse, awakening to oneself into a life that is foreign and scary, and taking baby steps each day to integrate newness and wonder.
I figure that I can’t be the only woman or perhaps man out in the world, that has had to experience this sad reality. And that is the thing. This story isn’t a sad one anymore. It is an experience that has molded and shaped me into the very woman I am today. Who knows who I would’ve been had I not of chosen this life to incarnate into. We choose our life’s and experiences so that we can walk the path that we came here to. When we are here, it’s a funny thing to reflect back on our human experiences and be so connected to them, as again, we are apart of a bigger magic.
This idea of my book has and is shaping each month that passes. As I continue to focus on it, it continues to get clearer and clearer, I get more excited about its impending arrival.
Each time I sit down to write, there are a multiple billion word options available to me to use, it is curious which ones will choose my page.
My calling is getting stronger. I am planning an escape into the forest, to be surrounded only by the trees, nature and water. I am creating a space to invite the words to spill forth and create this book. It is an exciting time. I can feel that there is more available to me than I can conceive of. And I feel ever more curious to read this book as I am to write it.
Spirit has a message to share through me, and I can’t wait to be its messenger.
