Heidi Firth Since getting regular with my writing and posting, I am learning that everyone has something to say, perhaps they just haven’t learnt how to say it yet?
I remember when I first met my coach, she was able to explain, in perfect detail, exactly how I was feeling, and describe a particular pattern I may have been caught in.
I remember thinking – I wish I could take this lady EVERYWHERE, so that she could articulate my words to my friends. Also, I wondered if there was a course I could take to learn the language she spoke.
Today, I am reflecting on the time that has past since that session, and acknowledging that I NOW speak that language that she did in that session.
The language of TRUTH.
We are beginning to hear more and more of this TRUTH. But what does it mean to you?
I reminds me of Mum saying to us kids, “now tell the truth”, as if we’d just done something naughty and now we have to fess up.
Fess Up. Tell your Truth. Speak of that which you have been up to. That which is on your mind.
Who is scared of others knowing what is on their mind?
For a LONG time, I felt like I was a fraud. Scared that people would find out that I was BULLSHIT.
Find out who the real me was, and then reject me for all the things I didn’t like about myself.
When I started my Personal Development Journey, my mask that I wore in the world, that showed everyone that I was ok, and that I had my shit together, it slowly began to fall away.
I had to develop a relationship with that part of me deep down. That part that felt like I was a fraud, that part of me that was scared. The part that was my TRUTH. The TRUTH about how I felt about myself! Who wants to admit that this is how they feel about themselves? No one. Which is why we hide behind our masks.
At Vision Quest, I set my intention to be a shining star in the world. I threw that piece of paper into the fire, and walked away from it, not at all understanding the extent of the intention I had just created.
I had asked for all of my masks to be melted away, revealing my true self, my shining light.
On the weeks/months/years that followed, I had completely dismantled my false sense of self.
I was stripped back to the very core of who I was.
My shining light self, that was not yet shining.
My TRUE self, raw and vulnerable in the world. Striped to expose that truth of the pain that had resided there.
During this time, I didn’t know this. I didn’t know these words that I am explaining to you now.
I only knew Lost. Fear. Pain. Sadness.
To society, I was depressed.
To my Nature Care peers, I was undergoing a Spiritual Emergence, maybe even an Emergency.
Most will take Anti-Depressants because it is not an easy path. (no judgement – huge topic here…)
Day in, day out, showing up in the world experiencing this level of pain.
Living in a world that doesn’t accept this level of pain.
Take a pill, you will feel better.
Time will heal.
This too shall pass.
I’ve heard them all.
But to sit in the depth and TRUTH of this space, is a journey that even the bravest soul may cower.
TRUTH
What is your TRUTH?
Is it that you are scared?
Is it that you are in pain?
Is it that you are deeply unhappy?
We all know this language of TRUTH.
But do YOU speak it?
Or do you turn the other way?
