To create change in the world, I write for me. To connect with a story from my soul.
To give my soul a purpose. I like the idea of having no agenda.
There is so much freedom in no agenda.
The same goes for other areas in life.
When we have no agenda in everything we are free.
Free to be, do, say anything because its affect doesn’t matter.
All that matters is the moment and how we are in the moment.
Because the next doesn’t exist.
There is just this moment now.
An expression of who we are in this moment can only be who we are. Peace within is the very space we crave.
There is no peace without ourselves first and foremost.
We all long for quiet sanctuary.
Free from mind confines, and tasks, and to do’s.
A moments rest if only for a moment can be peace enough to fulfill desires.
But, what if desires are not fulfilled?
What if longing and a pull forward is where our minds are focused?
What if we are not living a now based life style?
Where are we then?
Where are we existing?
Life is full of experience.
PAST. PRESENT. FUTURE.
All are experiences of our humanness.
Learning where and how to work within these can be a key tool to navigate our minds.
Such power tools of destruction they can be if not used respectfully. Give space to unknowns and dissolve the illusion of control with our mind-work.
When ‘out of control’ is present we need presence.
The dance of polarities.
Such is life.
If there was one without the other, there would be collapse.
If suddenly opposite ends merges – then what?
An introspective BOOM!
The world will change as we on an individual level accept our personal change.
I wish for others to align to their path as and when they are meant to, this, is what I am in a hurry for!
But, this is agenda?
Let us really connect to our inner primate.
Let us truly align to that which brought us here, here to this incredible planet.
Go can go Paleo & eat your grass feed cow, sure.
But tell me, would you messy your hands with the blood shed to do so?
This is your primal-ness.
Connect in with that before you preach to the masses about how & where to eat.
Talk to your farmer.
What is their names?
How were they raised?
What is their connection to the land?
All land has depth.
The spirits know this.
Look between the cracks.
The stories we have created about what is right & wrong.
We need to ask deeper, real questions, about what is right for us.
The planet and great well-being.
It is no longer ok, to accept what we are taught.
For what we are taught does not come from our own guidance.
Our inner guidance knows.
It couldn’t not.
You arrived here knowing this, but somehow forgetting.
Align. Connect. Breathe, and give space and the truth will shine through.
The other day, upon receiving Mums care parcel, the craziest experience began to unfold.
As if a virtual delivery message was received with this tangible parcel, a communicative message deeper than can be understood began to envelope.
Just after Neil answered the door to the postman, who held with him, our parcel, I began to feel nauseous. It was as if suddenly I needed to release a HUGE almighty burp from the pit of my belly, but I couldn’t.
We opened the parcel together – which was perfect. Perfect because Neil is not usually home during the day. The weather circumstances saw him home, resting.
Mum had told me she had written a letter to us. An outlet of her thoughts post a very recent conversation we had had.
It was one of those beautiful conversations, that is absolute gold to share with your Mum. That one magical person who accepts you entirely. The topic – children.
My whole life, I have never been the kind of girl who has said that she’s wanted kids. It’s never been on my agenda. Though equally – I have never cancelled it out either. This conversation was about my age & stage in life, and whether or not I felt like this was really something I wanted. At the age of 36.5 – one would say my ‘use by’ date is near approaching.
I’d shared my fears, thoughts, my current relationship status, with my Mum. I put it all out on the table. And as Mum does, in that Motherly nurturing way, she received my words and shared her wisdom.
And so after this conversation, and an equally beautiful one with another wise woman Mother, I have felt a profound shift of thoughts towards this topic. So much so, I came to the conclusion that I felt kids were on the cards. With this magnificient shift, shared my heart & placed these cards on the table for Neil to hold.
As our relationship is currently up for review – everything feels very much in the air. Are we right for each other? We are so different. Our interests are so different. Our ideas are profoundly different… anyway, this journeys onto another story, so for the meantime, back with the original story…
I was feeling nauseous, so after opening Mums gifts; NZ Chocolate, a Kiwi t-shirt for Neil; A hand knitted cushion – sprayed with Mums scent, letter with thoughts about making babies, I needed to lay down.
I was breathing & burping and making a whole lota noise, trying to release what was now present for me in my body. After a good 10 minutes of this, Neil came to the bedroom to check on me. I told him what was happening & he lay down to support me. Another few minutes passed and the energy releasing turned into tears. As usual, I wasn’t sure the reason behind the tears; I just go with it and allow them to flow. Neil continued to hold me, checking in that I was ok. They continued harder and deeper with their release. As this was occurring – what was birthing was a profound sense of energy – this energy – so strong a presence, felt like that of a little being, informing us that he was choosing us to be his parents! This beautiful profound spirit was making himself known that he would be coming into our lives! I started communicating this this to Neil, but simply could not hold back the tears! I continued to cry and cry…
Nearing the end of feeling this magical presence – I felt an amazing sensation – I can only liken to that of being pregnant! Not that I know – but it felt wildly profound and very real. I did purchase a pregnancy testing kit to double check – but the result was a negative.
So since then, Friday, I feel like I have opened up to a whole new level of communication with the world outside of what we perceive.
There are continued parts to this story that stray off on different tangents, but this is the one I feel most called to write about for now.
After reading the book, years ago – Winter Moon Rises, by Scott Blum – I always envisioned that if I was to ever have a baby, then I would connect with its soul firstly. This experience alters the ‘idea’ of having a child as most of us know it. It is wildly profound and connecting beyond this world than we could know.
This story is not finished yet, in fact it feels like the beginning of something, beyond the realms of simply (complexly) bringing a child into the world.
What does my soul wish to share today?
On matters of the heart & love.
Love & Expansion are all that exist in the realm of the soul, there is not much more. So as humans to be connected too & aware of these, is the gateway for greater joy in ones life!
As humans we spend to much time worrying about matters of the head, and wondering where are we going, what are we doing, how are we going to do this, that or the other, but the heart knows everything that he needs to know to take us to all these life experiences and questions that our head asks.
The head & the heart might seem separate, but they share their own unique partnership. One could not operate without the other, without each other, neither would have the experiences that they wish for. And so, they need to communicate with each other to create.
Your life is a creation of your soul. Born through your head & your heart. It is imprinted onto your soul for this lifetime. You could say that the blueprint is within your soul. So if we know this, then surrender to our hearts leading us, knowing that they guide us constantly, there really can be nothing, NO-THING to fear.
It is when we allow our conditioned Ego, its wayward adventures of untruth, that we loose the key to drive our human vessel. The human mind is key, much like the key to your car. It starts the ignition & gets the engine running. Our minds are the key to get our hearts running, our body is the vehicle, like the body of your cars vehicle.
So if a healthy mind is where it all begins, how do we surrender to this, to be driven through this wondrous life?
Your mind is like a computer hard drive that you have had since birth. Storing all thoughts, ideas, beliefs, memories, concepts, anything that you’ve seen, heard and thought of. You have complete access to everything within it! However your mind will continue to use this past information for the present and your future life, attempting to paint your reality, your life, with what it already knows.
But how could it already know what is to come? It cannot possibly know what the soul has written.
And so, meditation is the way to clear these previously ingrained ideas, concepts, beliefs and thoughts. Think of it as your daily garbage collection. Taking out what is not needed each day. Creating space in your coconut for new ideas to flow forth from the great old Universe! You are in co-creation with your heart and the Universe in each and every moment. You mind just needs to be receptive to receive these ideas.
So when we are ready to be open to receive, we will be ready to move forth in divine flow with the creator and all there is, to create a life far beyond what our minds can conceive. We each have our own paths to curve and create through this tapestry of life. They are joyous & fulfilling, beyond our wildest dreams and available to us right now, In this moment, the next moment, and each and every moment for the rest of our days.
It is the dance of being human, a human experience unlike any other. This is why you choose to come here, to experience aspects of yourself that you couldn’t in your light form.
To weave the web of life and play in the mystery of creation.