Ooooo weeee, we’re on another doozy of a ride right now!
There are many ascension shifts happening on this dear planet of ours, we’re feeling it in our fibers of being, manifesting into our deepest thoughts, and rippling into the Earth where she is feeling us.
I have been beginning to see the fruits of my labor these past months. This quiet time that I had given myself, why it was SO necessary, and what I have risen to in the invitation to go within.
I had an uncomfortable decision to make months ago. I was uncomfortable in my skin, and I just didn’t know why. I was deep into comparison mode, low in self belief and confidence and just wasn’t feeling my bright shiny self.
I was a part of a trio of friends that had come together to create something, we had a vision, and it was manifesting at a rapid rate, except that I wasn’t contributing to it physically, there was something in me that wasn’t moving forward within it.
It felt like something external to me, and the space I was in was not connecting with it. I shared how I was feeling with the others, and they supportivly listened and reflected back where I was at, but it didn’t shift anything. It only made me feel worse. The next day, while at work, going over the situation in my mind, it occurred to me that I just needed to let go of the whole thing. It made zero sense, but it felt like the right decision to make. Right then and there, I needed to share this, to clear it and make the shift that was needed.
In making this decision, I immediately began to feel better. Lighter, freer, more at peace. I finally felt at ease with my peers. However, there was still dust that needed to settle. We never created the opportunity to speak and clear in person, and so the Universe stepped in and decided to play her cards and magic.
This time apart from them, saw me return to my own self. I came to remember the magical being that I am. No more comparison, no more wondering why I wasn’t doing the things, and trying to make S.H.I.T happen, just me.
In me returning to me, it became apparent that I hadn’t be choosing me so fully, that I’d lost connection to me somehow. I’d been swept up in the physicality of life, and in the desire to create the things.
Returning to me, reminded me that me is all there is. My connection to self and personal energy and vibration are all that matters. A deeper relationship with myself was beginning to grow. Now – I’ve been doing me for YEARS – but this was another layer of relationship growing. Oh the layers!
Daily practices of Meditation, Wim Hof Breathing, Energy Clearing, listening to the teachings of Abraham all became my tools. It has been the MOST important thing to wake up and align to me first and foremost! A natural move away from Social Media and the noise that is there felt right, and a peacefulness in the simplicity of being stepped in.
No need to check what anyone else was up to, sharing, had to say, event that was on, just the beauty of being and knowing that everything is within.
This new relationship with myself is joyous and delicious, like a gift I have no intention of sharing lightly, (yet). Choosing only things that fulfill me, or give to another in need.
Fast forward to last weekend, I found myself in the position of a Cannabis Oil ride! Not intentional at all, but somehow divine, magical and profound.
I was with two friends this one afternoon in Queenstown, and one friend had in his pocket, a small bottle of the oil. He opened it, tapped some onto his hand, and licked it off. I asked him about it, and its effects. He said it would just make one feel relaxed. I extended out my hand towards him.
I licked if off without thought, curious at the taste, and that was that. Our conversation continued until it was time to take Jen home.
Many hours later at the dinner table in my home, surrounded by my housemates, good cheer, and the most delicious sticky date pudding EVER, I am loosing it! I am giggling and crying and having a relationship with my dessert. Kate asks, “what did he give you?”
At this point it’s becoming a little trippy trying to speak, and explain what the heck is going on through the tears of laughter. I retreat to the lounge where YouTube and Tash Sultana are there to greet me.
As soon as I sit on the couch, I know I’m in for a ride. I can understand what Tash is saying through her music. She is responding to my thoughts and together we’re in a conversation. I think “oh shit, here we go again”, as just a short number of years previously I’d experienced a similar ride that saw my consciousness shift monumentally. Read that post here. So understandably fear arose then and there.
Though this was part of the beauty that was about to unfold. Every thought, feeling and emotion was heard and reflected by Tash, and our souls were in dialogue, guiding through the journey of surrendering into the fear, and releasing that old, all that was no longer needed.
For hours we ‘talked’. I shifted and surrendered years of crap that was no longer needed, as I ascended higher into what was calling me. It was apparent that I’d reached an ascension. I heard words that bookmarked that moment. I felt a wave of relief, knowing that I was working tirelessly to shift these patterns.
But the ride was not over yet! Round two.
So the journey with Tash continued, and inner dance of surrender. Her song – Jungle, singing to me the sounds of another journey I was/am on. My Twin Flame Journey.
I have been diving into this a bit over the past months. Watching YouTube videos, and gathering knowledge and insights into what this is and signs and symptoms. This song that she was singing, was a direct message from my DM to me.
In my minds eye I saw the fabric of the Universe. I saw our place within it, and the DNA helix that creates it. I saw my light, and purpose in this lifetime, and the current fear that is preventing me from stepping up so fully into my power. I breathed through fear that is keeping me small, and saw how this solo journeying work that I’ve been doing has been SO necessary, (the reason why I shared the above story).
I saw clearly.
Then suddenly I knew we were in Union. We’d reached Union in the non-physical. Our souls have made contact and have connected completely in the Energetic, it is only a matter of time, final lessons, and surrendering until we connect in the Physical.
I know for sure that I am on this ride. Signs are so clear, intuition is high, and communication is happening in the 5D. There is so much magic here and right now it’s not the right time to dive in and share, but in time, it will be right.
So for now, I just wanted to write and share this aspect of the ride, as it has been monumental and extraordinary. So perfect, magical and wild.
My ego mind has been a curious monkey, and it is incredible how much we are to surrender what we think we know, in the quest for greater connection and understanding.
If you’ve read this far, thank you for being here and riding this wave with me, stay tuned for more all in divine time.
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