AAbdominal Cramps: Fear. Stopping the process.Abscess: Fermenting thoughts over hurts, slights and revenge.Accidents: Inability to speak up for the self. Rebellion against authority. Belief in violence.Aches: Longing for love. Longing to be held.Acne: Not accepting the self. Dislike of the self.Addictions: Running from the self. Fear. Not knowing how to love self.Adrenal Problems: Defeatism. No …
Clearing Subconscious Blocks
Last week I had the pleasure of receiving a Theta Healing from a new friend, which was SO SO needed. I had deep frustration around feeling like nothing was moving forward, she supported me in clearing subconscious blocks. We both practice a modality called Theta Healing. It works with the Theta brain state, our subconscious …
Download alignment to your dreams
We have a plan. Our dreams, visions, souls desires. We spend our lives in pursuit of these dreams no? What if you could download alignment to your dreams? The unfolding nature that is our life. Our experience ebbing & flowing to create our dreams. But they never manifest in a way that we ‘think’ they’re …
the partying, the drinking, the self loathing…
I didn’t understand why I did the things I did. The partying, the drinking, the self loathing, the weekend binges of party drugs & dancing. The high intensity gym junkie addictions, my food binges & more self loathing. I didn’t understand why I was drawn to work with a Practitioner & dive into the rabbit …
Our Divine Feminine Essence
I am currently experiencing, both within & without, a deep call to honor our divine feminine essence. This week, I am learning and witnessing the union of my inner divine feminine essence & divine masculine energies. What I am learning, is that they haven’t done this before, it’s new, trust is a thing, and there’s …
The Journey from Head to Heart
I sat in meditation this morning and this is what was highlighted; the greatest journey we will ever make, is the journey from head to heart. The shift from an existence living separated & controlling – to moving into connected & in flow. I have been on this path for many years of this lifetime, …
Welcome Back Heidi
Once upon a time this website started out as my blog. A place where I would share personal writings about life, lessons & my experiences. The articles are still here, and I’m slowly resurrecting them, they may take some time to edit to the updated theme. Honestly I stopped writing & sharing when my heart …
Guru hacks to simplify life
Here are 9 hacks to simplify life that I’ve learnt over time. They assist in clearing the clutter of the mind and align more strongly with my Inner Guru. 1 REST When your body is tired, and all you can think about is needing a rest, take a rest! Your body is your vehicle. When …
One year on home soil
It’s kinda tough to illustrate 1 year in just a few words or images, but this month, it’s been 1 year that I’ve been back on home soil. I can’t quite believe it. 1 year ago I landed all bright eyed and optimistic of what was to come being back in the West and in …
A Cathartic Winter
My last post was on 16 May. 3 Months ago! What a 3 months it has been. Nothing short of small. I don’t know about you, but from what I’ve heard from the collective – it has been a cathartic time. Everyone has been experiencing great change in their own way.
Me. Mine has been very internal. If you’ve seen me, I might look calm, composed, or maybe even a bit quiet/reserved. But internally it’s looked like The Tower card from the a Tarot Card deck.
I’ve mostly been journaling my thoughts, keeping them to myself, which has helped me shift what is circling internally, moving it outwards. Always important. Wim Hof breathing has been a consistent, and being a Hermit has felt oh-so-right.
As mentioned in my previous post, I went through a death. So my understanding is that through this Winter period, that phase continued. When you think about Winter – what thoughts do you conjure? I think of Bears hybinating. Taking time out to sleep, rest, restore. Call me a Bear.
It’s only with this newness of Spring energy that I am beginning to take steps out of my cave. 2 steps forward, 1 step back. A little tentative and new on foot. Feeling slightly awkward and uncomfortable in social settings. 1 step back.
Old ways have been shed. Ways that I knew myself to be for so long. I don’t quite know what to expect now. I’ve been visioning for the past month – feeling into what I wish to create. Law of Attraction states this will be so. Feeling my inner landscape and living aligned to my self, not getting swept up in my physical reality as that is just passing through as change is shed.
I’ve been rewiring thoughts, choosing me more and more. In moments where I would send love to someone, I am choosing to redirect it to me first. I’ve been a needy bugger. Often looking for love external of myself, we all do don’t we? I’ve found this new. I want to give so much in order to be loved in return, but this pattern seems to have pushed people away.
So I’m in the midst of this change. Choosing me irrespective of the other. Becoming more self sufficient. Becoming so attractive in my own love, that love from another wouldn’t even matter. Of course welcome, but irrelevant. You know what? It feels yummy! It’s not conditional, it is constant. Always available. There is great peace here.
I am learning to walk again, holding this valuable gift, vulnerable to the old ways wanting to trick me back. This is why I’ve been absent on Facebook. I’ve wrapped myself up gently, and am holding myself sacred. Emerging out slowly, to experience and integrate only when I want.
I have some big visions brewing. They require great change. I’ve been preparing myself, shedding old ways to make way for these new vibrations. It is so tremendously exciting… I’m on the right track, I know it. Such a welcome relief.
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